Small things first

I'm a mess
Nothing feels right anymore
It's all in pieces
And suddenly I can't find my heart
I tried so hard to keep it together
But somewhere along the way
I lost sight of what I believed in
And slowly began to fade

Small things first,
One fake smile for every real one
Tears shed to match the rain outside
A red ribbon pressed against my mouth
Criss crossing my thoughts
To keep it all a secret
Cuz I am not
Who I thought I would be by now

I'm a pile
Broken pieces thrown together
And I try, I try so hard
To get something right for once
But the world plots against me
Or so it seems
And nothing is quite what I wanted
But that's not too hard to believe...

Cuz it was small things first,
One fake smile for every real one
Tears shed to match the rain outside
A red ribbon pressed against my mouth
Criss crossing my thoughts
To keep it all a secret
Cuz I am not
Who I thought I would be by now

I'm running in circles all day
Just trying to make some sense somewhere
How can one girl be so wrong?
All My thoughts are flying flying
As my dreams are dying dying
Somehow I'll get out of this alive...

And it was small things first,
One fake smile for every real one
Tears shed to match the rain outside
A red ribbon pressed against my mouth
Criss crossing my thoughts
To keep it all a secret
Cuz I am not
Who I thought I would be by now

xxx

( in case you're wondering, this is a song... again, im too shy to post the tune but one of these days i will, i promise)
love,
.:kara.grace:.