this is the beginning of the end
all the rules we know begin to bend
and parting now we go our seperate ways
hoping we will meet again someday

the nights we spent
the memories made remain
but life that we once knew will slowly fade
until we're left with empty smiles in vain
and pictures smudged and wrinkled from the rain

Small things first

I'm a mess
Nothing feels right anymore
It's all in pieces
And suddenly I can't find my heart
I tried so hard to keep it together
But somewhere along the way
I lost sight of what I believed in
And slowly began to fade

Small things first,
One fake smile for every real one
Tears shed to match the rain outside
A red ribbon pressed against my mouth
Criss crossing my thoughts
To keep it all a secret
Cuz I am not
Who I thought I would be by now

I'm a pile
Broken pieces thrown together
And I try, I try so hard
To get something right for once
But the world plots against me
Or so it seems
And nothing is quite what I wanted
But that's not too hard to believe...

Cuz it was small things first,
One fake smile for every real one
Tears shed to match the rain outside
A red ribbon pressed against my mouth
Criss crossing my thoughts
To keep it all a secret
Cuz I am not
Who I thought I would be by now

I'm running in circles all day
Just trying to make some sense somewhere
How can one girl be so wrong?
All My thoughts are flying flying
As my dreams are dying dying
Somehow I'll get out of this alive...

And it was small things first,
One fake smile for every real one
Tears shed to match the rain outside
A red ribbon pressed against my mouth
Criss crossing my thoughts
To keep it all a secret
Cuz I am not
Who I thought I would be by now

xxx

( in case you're wondering, this is a song... again, im too shy to post the tune but one of these days i will, i promise)
love,
.:kara.grace:.

this isnt a poem... i wrote it today on the way to my dance competition (i do irish dance) today and decided i really liked how it turned out, but its a bit to fluffy for my blog blog. its kind of like a promise to myself, and i guess it helped cuz i got 2 firsts and a second, yaaay.

Today, for once, this is about me. Today I am not Sister, Daughter, Friend, I am simply a dancer. When I walk through the doors I'll leave my problems in a heap outside the door and float with dizzy freedom until its time to leave again and hoist the sadness and pain back on my shoulders. Today I will wear a mask of sparkles and color that I can hide behind with no fear of failure because all of the sudden I am the only one dancing. My feet will fly with practiced grace and my mind will race with the music but my heart, for once, will be strangely still because finally I am free. I will leap higher, dance harder, smile bigger than the others and snatch the medals from their groping hands because today, this is about me. And today, I will win.
xxx
annnnnd last of all i found this poem the other day and put some chords to it... heres what i got, tell me what you think

come close, close enough to touch
stay away you love is just to much
far away is where i want to be
on my own i've lost the will to breathe

feelings come then go before the dawn
my jumbled dreams are going going gone
close my eyes and you are who i see
all alone your love is killing me

now you're here you swear you've come to stay
this i've heard but i don't think you'll change
words will fade and we will carry on
until our lives are wrinkled, tattered, gone

the end. if it was in song version the middle stanza is the chorus... i really should just video these but im too shy :3

Goodbye

You swear up and down I’m confusing
That I’m crazy and never the same
But these words that you say aren’t amazing
I’m through putting up with your games
Now I’m not a girl you can mess with
You’re gonna find out that its true
When I’m moving on and done crying
The one left behind will be you

Mazes are fun for awhile I like to be chased now and then
But you just want me for a moment
When its over you’re leaving again
Goodbye little boy I believe in
Are you sorry for what I went through?
Hope you realize that I wasn’t kidding
The one left to cry now is you

XX this is it in poem version… but I made it into a song actually with a chorus and a bridge but I don’t want to write it all because it s dumb without the tune….

beginning again.

i have this irrational fear of sharing my poetry, so bear with me as i hold onto it for a moment longer like a kid with a teddy bear. but i will let it go... this is an old poem, but one of my favorites that ive written. i think i wrote it about 2 years ago when i couldnt sleep...


Imagination

The night is silent no more
What woke me I do not know
But a shadow falls under the door
Like the eerie form of a ghost
And the silence now broken haunts me
My dreams turn to evil once more
As i ponder and wonder
Oh who is the owner
Of shadow that slips to my door?

Is it phantom or madman or brigand that comes
In torture of night
My fear his delight
Does he smile and I worry
And laugh and I cry
The door slowly opens my death has arrived!

The air is still
The room is filled
With shadows lurking near
Darkness closing in on me and all that I hold dear
But now there is no evidence
Of any fiend or foe
In blink of eye
He vanishes
I know not where he goes...

The night is silent once more
What woke me I do not know
But a shadow falls under the door
Like the eerie form of a ghost...

what do you think~ feedback? i have an extended version with more violence and a battle for the persons soul somewhere... i should find that...

explained

so i havent posted here in a while, but thank you to the tryingtob and rae who commented on my old post XD thanks! i plan now to use this as a place for my poems, because they are scattered throughout various notebooks and id love to have them all in one place. understand, these are pieces of me, these poems are the words i cant bear to say for real to anyone that needs to hear them. im a mess, youll get used to it.